Going through a scripted destiny

2010-06-10T23:29:00.001+08:00

2010-05-14T07:41:00.001+08:00

If you already have yours, why must you still come bugging mine?

I may seem indifferent on the outside, but that does not mean I don't care or that I'm not in the slightest bit angry.

2010-05-09T07:47:00.001+08:00

To the one who endured 16 hours of labour just to get me out into this world, the one who brought me up to who I am today and the one whom I really look up to, she’s my best friend and my idol. The best Mummy in the world I could ever ask for.

Happy Mummy’s Day!

2010-05-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

Two days ago, I had my first paper and I admit I never felt so pressured and so scared before for an exam. Firstly it’s Financial Management and my brain isn’t exactly finance-material and this is my FINALS after all. But thank goodness, paper turned out good and I’m glad FM is out of the way so I can now concentrate on the rest of the papers.

Oh, I realised one thing, i think Beebee is much more worried about my exams compared to me. Bee went to the extent of getting up at 4 in the morning just to wake me up so that I can finish my revisions on time even though he had few hours of sleep only. Thanks bee! Need you to do this for 5 more papers haha!

2010-04-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

Today marks possibly the last lecture of my life and probably the next time I’ll return to SIM will be for my graduation next year (hopefully!). After 3 years in there, I think I’m more than ready to say goodbye.

Beebee, thanks for all the times you sent and fetched me from school and not forgetting the times you stayed in school while I went for lectures. Like you said, normal boyfriends send and fetch only, but you, send, stay and fetch some more. So tell me, where else can I find someone like you right?

So, this is it, the final sprint towards the finals and exactly 21 days from today, I can officially say I’m no longer a student.

2010-04-16T10:24:00.004+08:00

18 days. make it or break it.

is it worth holding on to something that gives you so much joy and yet so much pain at the same time?

2010-04-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

I had the most most most embarrassing moment in my life just now. Never before in my 23 years did i ever did something, albeit accidentally, so stupid and so embarrassing. sigh.

2010-04-05T09:51:00.005+08:00

futsal. check.

kl trip. check.

birthday. check

so, playtime's over, it's time to hibernate and study.

2010-03-17T17:30:00.001+08:00

There's a pain that sleeps inside,
sleeps with just one eye,
and awakens the moment that you leave.
Though I try to look away,
the pain it still remains,
only leaving when you're next to me.

So, can you come and make it disappear?

2010-03-15T10:49:00.002+08:00

One of the female cats in my estate just gave birth to four little babies.
The mummy's Kimberly, and her four babies are Cappuccino, Vinnie, Bobby & Milwaukee.
(no arguments ok, bee?)

2010-03-09T09:37:00.007+08:00

look what i found on my way back from tuition yesterday

(and no, i didn't bring them back home)

yesterday, was also Granddad's 70th birthday

Cause something’s changed
You’ve been acting so strange
And it's taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that I’m ready to let you leave

2010-03-08T14:16:00.001+08:00

i just want this to be over and done with, so if there's even a teeny weeny sign that can appear and point me the right direction, i'll gladly appreciate it.

2010-03-07T09:30:00.007+08:00

Those of you who know me well would know that for every season of American Idol, I'll watch only the auditions and then skip the whole elimination rounds and then watch the finals. However, it's different this year, and all because of:

Plus the fact that those I don't like are voted off one by one, Ashley Rodriguez, Tyler Grady, Jermaine Sellers, Haeley Vaughn so I'm liking this season of AI.

But then again, nothing comes close to my favourite.

2010-03-02T08:43:00.000+08:00

I dunno why I’m having these irrational feelings and thoughts right now (ok, it’s not exactly 100% irrational, cos I do have my reasons) and I can’t seem to stop it. Like Kammy said, it’s dangerous and that I shouldn’t get carried away, but god knows how hard I’ve tried to ignore them. I tried reasoning with myself, think logically, vented my frustrations to tell myself I’m just being stupid and that I should sleep it off but turns out that even a good night’s sleep can’t make them go away.

Someone please help me, tell me what’s happening and what can I do? Am I being silly or is this something that’s gonna haunt me for a long time?

Maybe, just maybe, I need to get away for sometime.

2010-02-26T08:33:00.001+08:00

"The grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do,
something to love, and something to hope for."
Joseph Addison

2010-02-22T16:54:00.003+08:00

12 days to mock exams
19 days to 8 months
28 days to KL trip
40 days to TWENTYTHREE
72 days to finals
89 days to sayonara lectures, books, notes & mugging

and it's exactly 9 months today since that fateful afternoon

Universal Studios Singapore

2010-02-20T18:19:00.010+08:00

first picture for the day and also the most epic moment.

my camera battery died AFTER JUST ONE PICTURE.
(sorry beebee! make you carry it for nothing)

awesome dinner (now, McD or BK look like child's play only)

my kakak!

beebee is love

more peektures up on facebook.....

2010-02-20T00:38:00.001+08:00

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies
-Aristotle

2010-02-19T10:27:00.003+08:00

need to get used to this feeling of not having you around me so much anymore
....

2010-02-16T15:20:00.000+08:00

And I want you now
I want you now
I'll feel my heart implode
I'm breaking out
Escaping now
Feeling my faith erode

2010-02-15T14:15:00.002+08:00

Jogging with my 2 Bs (beebee & bestie) has been really good, the first time we did on Saturday we ran for 3km (I know la, not big for some of you, but for someone like me who has not been exercising or whatsoever for the longest time, it’s something okay?), then we ran again today and we went for almost 6km albeit with little little stops in between. So if we can keep this up, then our weight-loss goal should be on track right kamy? Plus now that my weight is on the ugly side, all the more I should stop eating and start exercising.

Anyway, for cny this year, the cousins, the brothers and me became movers for a day. One of our aunt is shifting house now that both her children have their own places, so no point in staying such a big house for the 2 of them. Can’t believe we dragged so much stuff till it required 3 trips with the whole big lorry FULL of stuff which leads to me think how on earth are they going to fit stuff from a 5-room flat into a 3-room one? God bless.

Then at nite, met beebee to (guess what?) WASH HIS CAR. Nice way of celebrating V-day huh? But it’s alright, cos everyday’s like a valentine day to me. :) After that, we played basketball for a while where I was the better shooter ok bee? No arguments.

Oh and how can I forget the last 2 hrs of V-day was spent arguing with each other the pros and cons of having a tv in the kids’ room? So beebee, even though I may say I agree with you already but that doesn’t mean I accept it with open arms and big smile ya?

2010-02-09T10:00:00.004+08:00

My weekend:

Chalet - ate too much & now my weight shot up again

Airshow - bad bad sunburn & disappointing aerial display

missing some other cousins & uncle

airshow

2010-01-16T14:49:00.000+08:00

I don’t mean to feel like this, don’t mean to think like this
My heart just has to be sure
That the love I give to you, that’s the love I get from you
I need to be safe and secure

2010-01-15T07:53:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, you may have this premonition or gut feeling that something huge is going to happen, be it bad or good. For my case, it’s always bad la. To me, the anticipation and the waiting and that looking-over-your-shoulder-feeling for that something to happen is much worse than the actual thing itself exploding. I’d rather it happens quickly and after the dust has settled, I finally can heave a huge sigh of relief that it’s over.

I will not say that what happened didn’t leave any of us unscathed but I know it made me realise how much I really really need him and that one stupid mistake can cause whatever we had to just go poof! But it did not, so very I’m thankful that we still have us.

To my dear bee, I’m sorry for hurting you and that you mean more to me than anything else in the world. I promise, none of this will happen again. ILY.

2010-01-11T12:47:00.001+08:00

Have you ever been in a situation where you constantly feel like u need to live up to someone else’s expectations or even your own expectations for that matter? I’m sure everyone has.

This constant pressure (I’m using ‘pressure’ here for the lack of better word) can certainly be tiring and puts this sort of ‘fear’ that one mistake might cause everything to just crumble or even worse, disappointing that person whom you love very much. At any other times, this feeling or the need to ‘be perfect in that person’s eyes’ will and can push you to better yourself and your own capabilities but once in a while, it can hit you and make you sit and ponder whether this is the way it should be or whether you’re just being plain moody and irrational.

So for now, which one am I? The latter or the former?

ps. loud music and a good cry really helps....

2009-12-31T08:45:00.003+08:00

In about 16 hours, it’s gonna be the start of a new year. I’m not gonna be cliched and start coming out with a list of new year’s resolutions because I know I’m not gonna fulfil them (happens every year) but instead, for this new year, I’ve finally got a clear direction and a big big goal to achieve in life (and I won’t be doing it alone – super excited!).

I’ll be ending something which I’ve been doing practically my whole life – SCHOOL, in a matter of 5 months. Surprisingly, this fact don’t daunt me anymore (ok la, it still scares me but to a lesser extent now) and thanks to this special someone, I’m very happy and very contented with myself. So to my dear Nur’adil, thank you for everything, and I mean everything, be it for the big things, small things and even those teeny-weeny ones.

On a larger scale, 2009 was a very good year for me and here’s a shoutout to my babes (you know who you all are) – Happy New Year girls! Looking forward to hang out soon and not forgetting Kammy, here’s another Happy Birthday! for you.

Lastly, and definitely not least, Happy New Year to all of you guys too!

2009-12-19T08:22:00.002+08:00

Last night played futsal with bee and his boys again and this time round I ended up with two big blisters on my feet. It’s been some time since I had them blisters. Anyway, thank you Coach, Kak Yan & Sas for coming down and also thanks bee for organising this again. Next time we play at St Wilfrid’s la, how?

On another note, Mummy’s coming back tomorrow from her holidays! Like it’s about time, the house felt so different without her around, and and I finally get to eat her cooking again.

2009-12-17T19:43:00.005+08:00

Selamat Tahun Baru to All Muslims!

That's me and my favourite girl-cat, her name's Dey.

2009-12-16T16:46:00.002+08:00

4 more days.....

Egypt's new best friend

2009-12-14T08:03:00.003+08:00

Look what I found on my bed this morning.

He dumped Spongebob for Patrick.

2009-12-08T07:35:00.001+08:00

After having knives stabbed everywhere, it finally came to light that it was all a huge misunderstanding - all because of one person. With this one person, so much mess was created and we didn’t know who were the good guys or the bad guys. However, now, I know who can or cannot be trusted and it’s very sad to see such superficial person in this world. So to whoever I’ve offended with words, I just want to apologise, let’s just say, I was caught up with emotions at that point of time.

So anyway, last night Yatie and me finally met up with Kammy after dunno how many years she MIA. It was just a simple dinner/meet-up and now that Kammy’s an east-sider, it’ll be a lot easier to hang out. Oh, it was also an impromptu meeting-of-the-other-halves-night. We were just wondering what would happen if the three of them were to meet, and yes, we got our answers last night itself. It was all good, I must say.

It’s 7.30am now and I’m supposed to be on my way to school for my morning class but somehow, I just don’t feel like dealing with the morning rush today. So maybe I’ll just go for my afternoon classes later.

2009-12-04T13:05:00.000+08:00

To that dear girl of mine, stay strong and keep your faith alright, it’ll be over soon and you know we’ll always be here for you no matter what. I totally get how you’re feeling now cos I’ve been through it.

In the meantime, take good care of yourself and we shall have a spill-all-the-beans session on Monday ok?

2009-11-30T01:21:00.001+08:00

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.

~Kay Knudsen

2009-11-28T23:33:00.003+08:00

Two movies within three days. New Moon on Thursday and Ninja Assassin just now, both unplanned. I was at Marina Square with Beebee on Thursday and were walking around with nothing particular in mind so we decided to check out if there’s anything worth watching at the cinema that day. To my surprise, New Moon was already showing! I thought it’ll only sneak during the weekends but it was already showing. Let’s just say I was a happy happy girl that night. And beebee liked the movie too! At first he wasn’t very excited with all this Twilight thing especially with how the first one turned out, but in the end he liked the movie. Think Jacob and the wolves saved the day.

As for Ninja Assassin, we were at Iluma just now and Bee just wanted to check out what’s showing, and we ended up watching Ninja Assassin. Plotline was ok la, nothing superb and the way Rain speaks is just so funny. Plus point of the movie were probably how cool the ninjas moved, emerging from shadows and Rain’s bod. I realised we’ve been watching quite a few movies recently, we caught Paranormal Activity and 2012 too (which is a completely dumb movie by the way).

Haven’t hit the books for the past days so I guess playing time is over.....

2009-11-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone! Went to grandpa's house and did nothing except eat and eat. How to lose weight like that?? But one day won't kill i guess so it's back to business tomorrow and let's hope I do better than the previous time I jogged.

2009-11-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

I want my stamina back!!

This morning, I went jogging with beebee and by the time i reached the 2km mark, I was already panting and my chest felt like burning. This is so so bad. Ok, time to watch my diet and learn to take care of myself better.

Mummy's 45th birthday tomorrow and Hari Raya Haji the next day. Then December comes and I must keep to the pact. No more skipping classes. At least after the chalet la.

Oh talking about classes, my Tuesday morning Law class was cancelled and replacement is this Sunday at 12. Beeeee, accompany me can????

ps. my feet is itching to kick some balls. bad. organise cage soon, anyone?

2009-11-22T22:20:00.003+08:00

I still dunno why people are still playing the finger-pointing games when I thought everything is over and done with and that everyone's moved on. In any case, whatever makes them happy, ya?

Anyway, to my beebee:

Dear, I'm sorry if i'm being a whiny/irritating gf these past few days. I promise I won't get on your nerves so much in future (except when pms-ing) and that I love you very very much. You're the best, baby!

btw bee, today marks exactly 6 months since we first met with each other!

2009-10-19T09:07:00.006+08:00

Futsal with the boys at Stadio last night was damn gerek. Girls were me, Athirah and Dian with coach and Kak Yan joining us halfway, the rest were beebee and his boys. Highlights for me was when I fell straight to the ground on my sides after I jumped while trying to block the ball and beebee looking very boyboy in my jersey. Hahaha!
But best of all, I get to play soccer with beebee!

And Athirah, thanks eh for your comment that I never fail to fall anywhere and anytime I play soccer. Next time you come in your man utd jersey, you see what’s gonna happen.

2009-10-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

Never ever gonna let you go.

2009-10-16T09:47:00.002+08:00

Ok, my fb is screwed up. stupidly irritating.

On the other hand, I'm actually happy to say goodbye, especially to all those shitty stuff. Yes, I'll miss playing, but it's better than having to deal with sad, shallow and narrow-minded people. If you think you and your friends are damn good, then by all means go ahead. Live in your own denial world. Wake up and look into the mirror, you're not the queen.

2009-10-13T11:07:00.001+08:00

3 months and counting....

The one who calls me Pappi

2009-10-03T15:27:00.006+08:00

Beebee's niece. She's two and she's so cute!
So next qns is, beebee, when is she going to have Adam Kazuki as playmate?

2009-09-28T10:35:00.002+08:00

Those of you who knew me long enough would know that I don't watch horror movies, especially at the cinema. However, later, I'm gonna watch Phobia 2 with beebee. Let's see who's gonna scream more okay bee?

And lunch is on me today cos stupid hamilton won the race last night. I was gunning for Rosberg at first, then he had to have that penalty, I then changed to Vettel since beebee was KIND ENOUGH to let me have a chance but but but, Vettel had to serve a penalty also, so I lost both bets. What luck.

2009-09-21T18:09:00.002+08:00

New school season starts tomorrow, 8.30am right up till 6.30pm with only 2 half an hour breaks in between and I still have soccer after that. It'll be a miracle if I don't drop dead.

Anyway, Raya yesterday and today was okay, wasn't so kecoh like last year and I dunno why. Reached home late evening last night then had people coming over, I was really really tired... okays, it's now 6.15, will be going out again later at 7.30pm.

btw i miss my beebee alot

2009-09-02T07:34:00.002+08:00

C.O.N.T.E.N.T.E.D

Results were released yesterday and I must say, I am happy with the results based on the effort I've put in. One more week to choose my last few modules and 3 more weeks to school and one more year to graduate. This is the final lap so no more fooling around I guess.

School matters aside, we're still without points in the league. Let's hope this Sat's game will be different. It's the battle of the underdogs so let's see who shall triumph and salvage some pride.

Back at home, everything's going smoothly except that my house looks like it's been hit by a hurricane cos we're repacking all our stuff from the storeroom to the kitchen to the living room and even my bedroom. Talking about my bedroom, I'm painting, or rather beebee is going to paint while i help, my room purple. Like finally. I've been stuck with light colours since forever so this year, it'll be something different. Hope it turns out well. I just know it.

2009-08-20T08:04:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU NUR'ADIL NURUDDIN =)

2009-08-19T07:25:00.001+08:00

Will things turn out the way we want it to be? Have Faith.

2009-08-15T08:55:00.002+08:00

Played against mjc yesterday and we won 2-0 thanks to Kak Yan and her tak sengaje goals. Think we played badly cos coach was screaming from the sidelines and i missed one good shot =( the ball was just a few centimetres from the post. sigh.
next game is against ntu.. wonder how THAT will turn out.

after the game I had tuition, thanks beebee for fetching me back and forth. =)

okay, so now my whole body is aching and i need a massage.badly.
beeeee, where you?? come massage me!

alrights, nothing much today except i need to go ikea to get some stuffs for daddy and to my cousin's house later in the evening to teach.

toodles ppl!

2009-08-13T23:37:00.000+08:00

My beebee is back!! =))

2009-08-09T09:42:00.004+08:00

Last night was our first youth league game. Yeah we lost 0-1 to Ottawa Serpents FC but it was ok cos Coach was happy with the way we played. It was so much better than last time plus the goal was a freak-goal so yeah.. Hopefully, we can continue playing this way for the next 9 games.

This time, I didn't get injured too badly, just that my left arm feels funny, like numb and tingling and I can't carry heavy stuff with it, a bit of bruise at my chin cos i got whacked by a ball and my mouth bled a bit during the first-half. but things should be fine i guess.

Oh ya, it was such a sweet surprise to see beebee come down for the match. It was halfway through the second half when I saw him sitting at the sides with his friend and ya must admit I got a tad distracted haha! Nevertheless, thanks for coming down beebee!!

Talking about beebee, I really hope he'll get well soon, he's been having some throat infection for the past few days and it's not very fun to be with someone who can't talk much. Faster get well k beebee =)

2009-07-31T13:23:00.004+08:00

I realised I haven't been updating here as regularly as last time but that doesn't mean I've been cooped up at home.

I watched the Reds game on Sunday, some of the fans are seriously crazy. I mean they're playing at National Stadium and yet they call it Anfield? I understand how the singapore players felt at that time. The people didn't give a damn about the the local players and some even resort to booing the local players.. I mean come on la, sportsmanship ppl.

But before the game on Sunday, I went to Singapore river to see Torres. HE IS SO CUTE! and guess who i went with? Adil! and he's a MAN UTD FAN! hahahahaha! but nevertheless, thanks baby for spending the time with me just to see torres, finding good spots just so torres could check me out hehe and enduring the hot sun! And not to forget the fireworks!

Yesterday, we went to visit Omar at the Singapore Zoo and this zoo trip isn't like any other normal trip cos we saw things that we've never seen and also may not get to see at all, especially the ostrich right, baby? Hahahaha...

The whole week sped by just like that cos time passes by very fast when we're together.. But I must say, Life is so great at the moment and I'm loving every second of it! :D

2009-07-26T14:18:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was easily one of the best days of my life. Shall update the next time cos right now i'm getting super excited to see torres play right in front of my eyes!!
But then again, i'm sad cos my baby not going with me =(( like kamy said, i walk alone la later..

2009-07-23T07:37:00.006+08:00

They say there's always a first for everything, so yesterday was the first tow truck ride for me. Yes, you didn't see it wrongly, TOW TRUCK. How did it happened? Well, Adil's tyres burst. Cool eh? It happened at East Coast after our blading session.

Top to bottom - the before tyre when it just hit the kerb, the after tyre, his WIFE being towed (need to set the record straight to Adil the correct definition of wife here), my pretty boy hahaha!

2009-07-22T09:30:00.006+08:00

The Women’s Youth League is starting in like 2 weeks and I’m injured =( sigh. Hopefully, it’ll get better. Ok, here’s what I was up to last week.

Monday – I became the happiest girl on earth thanks to a certain special someone =) Till now, I dunno how very thankful I am to have met you and it all started at that little bus-stop.

Tuesday – Had lunch with Xiang, Julie and Hazwan at Compass Point. Then Hazwan drove us all to training. Below is Julie with her bowl hair.

Wednesday – I had tuition in the morning then went over to Adil’s house and spent the afternoon there. In the evening, Adil wanted to go Fort Siloso but in the end we ended up going to Sentosa instead. Since it was very impromptu, I didn’t have any change of clothes so we just played soccer there (you were impressed right, baby? First time you see me kick around hahha) But I accidentally kicked Adil’s leg and ended up with swollen toes =(

Thursday – Slept through most of the morning and then went to Adil’s house again and spent the day there after which I headed for tuition at night.

Friday – Tuition in the morning, then went to East Coast to have my Mac fix with Adil. Then, in the afternoon we went to Sentosa again. That’s the 2nd time in a week but this time, we came with all stuffs and I had a very very good time. Hope you did too, baby! =)

Saturday – Went to NYP in the morning for the Yeo’s Futsal, both teams lost in the first round. Lol! Think luck wasn’t on SIM’s side. Then I met up with Adil in the afternoon and accompanied him to settle some work. After that we went to Changi beach to blade! Or at least I learnt how to blade for the first time in my life. Haha pathetic right? But I did well ok. (See what did I say baby? Now u believe I’m a fast learner right? Hehe) Next time we go blading, I’ll race you k honey?

Sunday – Supposed to go MacRitchie Reservoir but I fell sick =(. Crap. Got a case of stomach flu. By the way, thanks baby for accompanying to the doctor =))

2009-07-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

Today, my dream came true. Thanks, baby! =))

2009-07-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

I am suddenly craving for fish. Especially Manhattan Fish Market.
Yeo's Ultimate Challenge this coming Saturday, it's a 5v5 futsal league. Wanna join but coach don't allow us to play if it's mixed gender cos she don't wanna risk injuries, but the prob is, the whole league is a mixed gender competition. How how how? I've already got casillas (lol!) to play as keeper for us and fave boy's playing with us also..

Let's hope things turn out well, worse come to worse, we'll just go ahead and play and have the guys protect us hahaha!

2009-07-10T15:39:00.008+08:00

Oh, I realised I didn't blog about this year's recruitment drive. Surprisingly, this years sign-ups was the highest among the 2 times we had the previous years but still we can't compete with the guys la, each time they open a trial, close to 80 would sign up. Sigh. If only, girls were like that.. Oh wells, here are some pics I ripped off from Las cos I didn't bring my camera that day.

2009-07-09T16:47:00.002+08:00

I'm supposed to plan a camp for the soccer club and also get Frolick Yoghurt to sponsor us for our Futsal League. God help me.

On another note, baby, let's hope we don't break our promise this time alright? For real.

2009-07-08T20:36:00.001+08:00

So, after a day's out with you, things are rosy and the big smile is back on my face once again. =)

2009-07-08T14:02:00.001+08:00

FUCKED UP.

I'm not some superwoman ok.

2009-07-07T23:51:00.002+08:00

my toes are gone =(((( soccer destroys my toes.

Finally, I'll be meeting Xiang this thursday so fave boy, stop saying I have no time for you ah.

2009-07-07T15:36:00.002+08:00

Ok i'm now in school at the booth super bored. At least recruitment is good this year. Gonna have soccer later, in the meantime I have like 2 hours to kill.

Oh about my previous rant, it's just the emotional me talking cos I'm seeing the onset of moodswings. very soon.

2009-07-07T07:10:00.001+08:00

GET.THE.HELL.AWAY.FROM.ME.

2009-07-06T07:54:00.002+08:00

I went to see Adil's cats yesterday, Egypt, Custard and Deco. They were so so cute!! I'll be getting Egypt so hopefully he can get along with all my other cats. Anyway, I could just sit there whole day and play with them la but then I had to go Sembawang for a friendly game. Supposedly, because by the time we reach there, it was raining damn heavily that we rescheduled the game for another day.

Ok, I'll be having orientation today and tomorrow, so I really really hope we get to recruit girls. Typical SIM girls consist of those who come to school with high heels and thick thick make-up (no offence la) but why not trade those for soccer boots once in a while right? Plus, soccer players don't need to look like guys what. You still can be girly yet play soccer at the same time.

Oh by the way Xiang, I'm so sorry I haven't been calling or meeting up with you. Promise after my orientation over, we go chill k?

2009-07-01T18:46:00.002+08:00

I'm back to giving tuitions so that solves the problem of getting a job and worrying about where to get more money during this school holidays. I just hope the kids won't suck my blood like the last time.

Oh by the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADIL!! Quarter century old already ah hahha. May you be blessed with all good things in life k. AND YOU OWE ME 2 B&J'S.

2009-06-30T08:06:00.000+08:00

I.HATE.COMPLICATED.THINGS.

2009-06-27T22:45:00.002+08:00

I watched Transformers today. It was alright, not as awesome as everyone made it out to be. I think Transformers 2 is just too over-hyped here and I still prefer the first one.
Anyway, with about half an hour left to the movie, a baby started crying (who in their right mind would bring a baby into a cinema?) and a kid behind me started kicking the back of my seat. STUPID.

2009-06-26T11:50:00.002+08:00

RIP MJ.

I think my bro tried telling me that mj died this morning but I told him to shut up cos I wanna sleep. Lols.

Ok, nothing on for me today except soccer later in the evening which I’ll be training with my yet-to-recover aching muscles.

And to the girl who's having a quarter-life crisis, fret not, things will be okay. You have us all with you to get through this.

By the way, I read somewhere that Ronaldo is not happy that a joint press conference is scheduled for him and Kaka. He also wants a guarantee that his salary will be the highest just to cement the fact that he's world player of the year. What a damn prick.

2009-06-25T12:58:00.002+08:00

Last night's friendly against RP:

SIM 0 - 3 RP

sigh. Oh wells, at least now I know who to go to for massages after each game :)

2009-06-23T09:14:00.002+08:00

CUPID'S GOT A HOLD ON ME.

And because of you, I can't stop smiling like a silly little girl =)

2009-06-22T11:35:00.002+08:00

I'm all alone at home super super super bored with 30 cats who are all sleeping. Daddy and bros just left for JB and Mummy's at work leaving me to babysit the cats. Sometimes, I don't look forward to long school vacation cos that means I have too much time in my hands and no idea what to do. Friends are either in school or working so can't really go out with them. Maybe, I should just get a job but then again, if I start working, my 3 months of carefree life will be gone.

I could use this free time to catch up on sleep since I slept for only 4 hours last night but I'm neither sleepy nor tired and there's nothing even good to watch on tv. sigh. I could do with some excitement right now. Haha.

oh by the way, where have YOU been? no calls/texts/hellos or anything? YOU simply disappeared ever since that night. It'd be nice to hear from you again, even if it's just to say hi.

and i hate these conflicting thoughts in my mind

2009-06-21T17:53:00.001+08:00

FRUSTRATED!!!

2009-06-20T22:51:00.001+08:00

Whatever reasons were there that made me do it, I'm very very glad I made that choice on that particular afternoon =)

2009-06-20T19:36:00.002+08:00

I know I'm not supposed to feel/behave this way but I can't help it. Sigh.
Am I being over-paranoid? Or was it wishful thinking on my part?
I need a sign please.

and I long to hear your voice again

2009-06-19T21:28:00.004+08:00

Ok, I'm back from my 2 day camp and not without battle scars. I've got a 8cm cut on my right thigh which I have no idea how I got it, bruises on my legs which I think I got from hitting chairs or tables during the games or when we were playing captain's ball and the boys were like banging into me. Ok la, not all boys, just Taufiq. He's damn tall so whenever I try to jump for the ball, he'll jump from behind me and just smack/steal the ball away. But it's alright, cos it's all in the name of fun ya.

I forgot to bring along a sleeping bag and of all things, my toothbrush for the camp but I'm so grateful Adil drove down with those stuff. Thanks Adil! Ulu Pandan is like on the other end of Singapore and yet you took the trouble to pass the stuff to me. Plus it was already midnight when u reach. I owe you another massage k? hahhaha. This time, I will make you so sleepy so that I can drive =)

We played Paintball one the second day and that was the last activity for the camp. It was fun shooting at people and I'm so happy I didn't get shot at for both games. We won the first game and this was where I became the bait. The other team was concentrating on shooting at me and so Brenda took this chance to complete the objectives. The rest of the guys, Alex, Aizat and Yao Ming were busy covering. We lost the 2nd game but it was ok cos I got to shoot at my opponents and hit them so many times. One or two shots even landed right smack in the middle of one someone's mask. Oops!

Overall, the camp was quite fun though I wasn't looking forward to it so much in the beginning, but I'm glad I did go for it. Besides having fun, I did learn about some other things. So next up, will be a soccer camp for the club and as Joe said, this would be purely leisure and fun camp.

and i hate saying goodbyes to you...

2009-06-17T10:06:00.004+08:00

My family is eating durians in the living room. I'm inside my room but i still can smell it all the way here (who eats durians in the morning anyway?) oh, did i mention my cats eat durians too? good la, everyone eats durians except me.

Last night's training was bad. Ok la, not the training but the weather. It was so damn hot and humid I was like showering in my own sweat (disgusting la!). Then, I felt mabok halfway thru the training because of the heat I think and now, my feet are covered in blisters. Time to get new boots. I need money!! Or anybody kind enough to get me a pair? I wear Adidas Predator Pulse ya btw.

Ok, gonna have a meeting later at FAS in the evening and I have no idea what I'm gonna do the whole day before that. Maybe I'll just rot at home today.

you're making it hard for me not to fall for you...

2009-06-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

I went MacRitchie with Adil today. We wanted to go to the Treetop Walk but we didn’t know it was closed on Mondays! So in the end, we walked another way. Halfway walking, there were monkeys blocking out path, ya, they were cute, but I was so scared they would jump and start biting me or something. Then this uncle came and chased them away. On the way back, we decided to walk another trail so that we can avoid the monkeys but guess what? The monkeys were playing around at the start of that trail! I think they know we were going that way so they purposely came out to scare me. But I managed to walk pass ok.

Something funny and embarrassing happened to me on the way back but not nice to mention here so I’ll just keep it between me and Adil hahaha. And yes, now I think I’ll learn not to argue too much cos now I lost a bet and owe a certain someone a massage just because I got my blocks wrong. Eh but block 20 is still behind block 1 ok, Adil?

Ok, it’s been an hour since I reached home, I know I’m supposed to sleep cos I’ll have to leave early morning tomorrow but I simply can’t. Plus I can hear my brother playing PES09 next door, tempting me! Maybe I’ll play just one match and sleep after that. Toodles!

2009-06-14T12:49:00.003+08:00

The weather was so nice that I spent the whole of Sunday morning sleeping/lazing around on my bed hugging my beloved Garfield. Lol.

2009-06-13T10:09:00.000+08:00

I'm a happy happy little girl :)

2009-06-12T08:42:00.003+08:00

sigh. i think it's gonna be one of those weeks again. :(

and those people are chopping down the trees in front of my house. very noisy and irritating!

2009-06-10T18:35:00.002+08:00

why can't just some people shut up and just listen? if you think you can do better, then by all means, do it!

2009-06-09T22:56:00.002+08:00

helllloooo peeps!

I'm back from my holidays, I know I'm supposed to be back only on the 10th but mummy couldn't get leave or something, so had to head back early. Anyway, I had a lot of fun, sorry julie! I didn't get to update my blog and no, I didn't have any chance for a holiday fling cos the people around my age were girls! no guys! hahaha!!

Mummy and I went with only a luggage bag and another small bag, but we came back with 5 bags all filled to the brim with stuff. Yes, I think I overspent a teeny bit this time round. What to do, the things were all cheap cheap cheap!

I'll update about my holidays next time cos right now, I don't have any energy to blog about it. I reached home at 4.30pm then headed out again at 5.30pm for soccer. Hahah, yes, i know, crazy right? but then i thought since this is the first session, i'll just drop by for a while... turns out, coach had an urgent meeting so she couldn't make it. In the end, we played by ourselves.

okies, now that I'm back safely from my trip, I'm waiting for dear Kamy to be back from her US trip. She promised to try her best to bring back a pretty boy for me!

Speaking of pretty boys, I think Kaka made a bad choice by choosing Real Madrid. Pray hard he won't be the next Owen.

2009-06-03T15:25:00.005+08:00

Okay folks, I'll be off for my holiday soon. By the way, I was on the phone with Julie and she suggested updating my blog backpacker-style, as I go along for my trip rather than wait a week and update all at once. This way, I'll be able to capture the essence of that moment. We'll see about that k Julie, I'll find some cyber cafe or anywhere there's internet connection and try to put them up.

Since I'll be away for a week, that means no goodnight concert anymore or having Xiang sing over the phone till like 3 in the morning. Lol!

*updates*
Before I leave, I told Xiang to go learn a song, Shayne Ward's Breathless, and sing it to me when I come back. Let's see how well he can do it since he has a week to master it :)

2009-06-02T12:53:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow, I’ll be off for my holidays and will be back next Wednesday. Too bad, it clashed with this year’s Diva la Futbol. Oh wells, we can’t have our cake and eat it too right?

Anyways, I’ve compiled a list of things I hope to do when I come back from holidays.

1. Revamp my bedroom – need to clear out all my notes/books/whatever junk I can find

2. Hopefully don’t lose to Xiang when we play Fifa. He always wins!

3. Start jogging again. Need my stamina back if I don’t wanna die in the middle of the
field

4. Probably get a job – but not those that requires me to go office everyday

5. Think of new kits for the new season

6. Meet up with my dear girls – I think the last time we got together was like a
a thousand years ago

7. Meet up with my wise-man, aka YQ!

8. Think of something I can do to attract Torres’ attention when he comes down in July

9. Get a pair of new boots

10. Go for spa and get my hair done

2009-05-28T11:35:00.000+08:00

WHOOPEE!!!! MAN U LOST!

2009-05-22T00:54:00.003+08:00

Okays, after nearly 100 million votes and Kris Allen wins American Idol. I think he has this budak baik thing going on with him that just appeals to the mass audience. Oh wells, I bet Adam's gonna be big, as flamboyant as he is.

So I watched AI live at home in the morning before my afternoon paper. FM was okay, just that the normal questions that I liked weren't tested. After my paper, went back to have dinner with my brothers at this restaurant near our place since our parents are not in town, again. Then, after dinner, headed down to Cineleisure to watch Night at the Museum 2 with Rina. It was full-house and since we reached quite late, we were left with only the front seats and guess what, this is the first time in my life watching a movie in the cinema from the front row, the VERY FRONT ROW. Both of us thought since we were already there and that we planned on watching it before she has to go back to ther hometown this weekend, we went ahead and bought the tix anyway. It wasn't so bad, sitting at the first row.

So here I am, at 1 in the morning, just got back home and finished showering and can't get to sleep. Tomorrow, I'll be meeting Miss Smarty-Pants aka Julie to study ESAP together. At least we'll be meeting at Tampines then I can get that Le Coq Sportif duffel I saw a few days ago.

2009-05-19T21:20:00.003+08:00

I was studying with xiang this afternoon and halfway through it, this guy came with his friend and sat at the table beside us. He was the most irritating, full-of-shit, annoying, full-of-crap guy i've ever come across. I wonder how his friend could even sit down and have a conversation with him. Seriously, if I were to meet this type of person, I wouldn't even last 5 minutes with him.

2009-05-15T09:04:00.006+08:00

Usually, whenever there's a new season of American Idol, I'll only watch the auditions and towards the last parts where it's down to the top 2 or 3. Same goes for this latest season. I watched the auditions and the Top 3. So glad Danny Gokey is booted out! Anyway, this time round who will it be?

Adam Lambert or Kris Allen? To me, I'd prefer Lambert to win cos as Simon Cowell puts it nicely, "he's got swagger" Kris is good too, he reminds me of those nice, quiet, goody boys whom your mummy will be proud if you bring home to. hehe.

Anyway, talking about competitions, Man U is one (ONE!!) point away from the title. DAMN. I hope Arsenal beats them on Saturday then at least can dampen their high spirits a bit.

Okays, I've got a paper later in the afternoon, so wish me luck!

2009-05-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

be my superhero, will you?

2009-05-12T14:04:00.006+08:00

I chanced upon this quote:

"Never regret something that once made you smile, even if it makes you cry now"

cool eh?

This week will be quite hectic, I have tuitions lined up 4 days in a row. Well, what to do, the kids' exams are this week so the parents are anxious, they want extra lessons, but but, looking on the bright side of it, after thurs, I'll be frreeee from anymore tuitions! YAY! (no more having to deal with kid's tantrums) ok la, they don't misbehave everytime but just that once in a while they'll get very lazy and uncooperative and they'll test my patience till I feel like strangling them.

I have a paper on Friday and i don't know if I'll be fully prepared (but i've never been fully prepared for any exams anyway). Oh wells, at least I have 3 more days to chiong for it. Thurs nite, hopefully I'll get to meet up with the lovelies. It's been ages and ages since we met. GOSSIPS and UPDATES session! Super excited!

Oh yes, I bought new running shoes (goodbye, my lovely red reeboks) last Sunday, so after exams, I'm set to burn off all these pounds with spanking new shoes hah!

Did i mention that my close friend from primary school is getting married this sunday? How time flies, I remember playing with her in school last time and now, she's gonna be a wifey!! Personally, I can't imagine myself being married to someone. I mean, marriage is a lifetime commitment and I must admit, the thought of being committed to someone/something your whole life is very intimidating. But of course, I won't say no if the right one comes along la. But let's leave that to fate, shall we?

2009-05-09T19:03:00.000+08:00

i want you to kiss me through the phone :)

2009-05-07T08:26:00.001+08:00

as happy as a clam. :D

2009-05-06T02:29:00.005+08:00

just a little something to fill the time with while i wait for the match to start.
one funny thing happened to me yesterday and it left me feeling amused and a tad disgusted. but oh wells, it wasn't any loss to me cos right now, the one at the losing end of the stick is not me but YOU. like what a dear friend of me said, 'he deserves her' i just hope the innocent one in this situation is not shortchanged in any way.

*updates*
Arsenal 1 - 3 Man Utd
Each time that self-absorbed Ronaldo scored, I felt like smacking that stupid smug off his face. Let's hope whoever they meet in the finals, be it Barca or Chelsea, they'll get thrashed. Seriously, I can't stand Ronaldo.

2009-05-05T15:31:00.002+08:00

i just received a msg saying temperature taking is required for students taking the UOL examinations at the expo this year. troublesome! and this brings back the memories from the SARS period. i just hope that the invigilators won't make me sit for the exams at a separate place or something cos my temp has always been higher that average.

2009-05-05T08:42:00.002+08:00

Arsenal vs Man Utd tomorrow morning. Exciting Exciting match. and no surprises for guessing correctly who I'll be rooting for :) GO FABREGAS!!!

2009-05-01T19:47:00.002+08:00

My mood swings are in full force mode plus and together with the exam stress i'm in right now, it has wreak havoc on my emotions. last night, i actually cried when i watched a buffalo getting killed by 3 lions. i mean, i know it's all part of nature but somehow, i just started crying. ok, not exectly cried with tears gushing out, just that my eyes began to water at the sight of the poor buffalo getting eaten up.
however, this won't change my dream to have baby tigers as pets.

2009-04-30T10:33:00.000+08:00

these feelings of emptiness. are they here to stay?

2009-04-26T13:20:00.002+08:00

STRESSED.TIRED.GRUMPY.FAT.HUGE EYEBAGS.PIMPLES.SOCCER-DEPRIVED.

that sums it all up perfectly.

2009-04-24T23:18:00.002+08:00

for our next study sessions PSPs and playing cards are forbidden, ok? :)

Liverpool 4 - 4 Arsenal

2009-04-22T04:59:00.001+08:00

what a game. and the russian doll scored all 4 for the gunners.